Grieving a delusion again

And I don’t even know who to ask…

Is there anything ever believed in that isn’t a grand, scapegoated mask?

You can “love and light” if you want to, or is it best to have nothing to hold on to?

A narcissistic god, who damned me from the start.

Is this the same god I asked into my heart?

Because I believed he would save me and join what’s torn apart.

Maybe I don’t need a savior

Maybe the work is done

Maybe when I came here, God and I were already one!!